Ok so a lot has been happening in my world of running. I've decided that I'm going to take this coming year to revitalize my running. I ran ARR's Thanksgiving Day Classic on Thanksgiving morning at the Peoria Complex in Peoria AZ (I think everyone just refers to it as the "Turkey Trot") I'm using that as my benchmark. I was expecting to run 12:00 min. miles (totally embarrassing but it's been a while) but much to my surprise I ran 10:35 min miles. It's not great but it's a start.
I've been pretty depressed about getting older (53 now) and have sort of given up on thinking I can accomplish anything but my impending death (mid-life crisis crap) so I've been struggling with what to do now that I'm getting older. It's a very trying time, I hear that many people give up at this point and settle into aging and death, but I don't want to do that! I want to keep living!
My blood pressure has been going up 163/100, I've been feeling fat, tired and horribly sluggish and my mental state has been one of anger and sadness. How can you do something to change your life when you're pissed off at it for insisting it will indeed leave one day?! I've spent my entire life learning to "Love my life" and now that I do........ I find it doesn't care! It's leaving me anyway and I will no longer "BE"... What kind of crap is that!?!
Life on Life's terms, Death on Deaths terms.
Life on Life's terms, Death on Deaths terms.
That's a pretty bitter pill to swallow.... but I have no choice, it will happen, I will die. As will we all.
So now what? With that reality firmly in hand, now what do I do? There's a part of me that says fine... if you want to leave, leave. I will lay here on the couch and do nothing more to make your stay more pleasant. Let's just get this over with.. pass me the chips and cookies!
yet....
there's still another thought, a smaller yet very distinct little voice that quietly whispers to my heart.....
no lea..
it's not over yet..
"Never" give up until you've crossed the "final" finish line! Race it all the way baby, go the distance, get UP and go RUN!!
"Never" give up until you've crossed the "final" finish line! Race it all the way baby, go the distance, get UP and go RUN!!
After all I AM still alive right?!
It appears I "Hit the Wall" in the Marathon of life. I was prepared for it in the race but not in every day life. However, now that I do recognize it for what it is I can refuel, take a pee break and head for the home stretch with a new sense of awe in how far I've come and what an awesome event this truly is. Yes there is a beginning and an end but there's also a lot of mileage in between.
So here I am running again and loving it more than I think I ever have! My adorable niece Lily gave me a Garmin forerunner 405 for Christmas (do not know how I've lived without one until now) and I'm planning my runs and races for the next year.
It appears I "Hit the Wall" in the Marathon of life. I was prepared for it in the race but not in every day life. However, now that I do recognize it for what it is I can refuel, take a pee break and head for the home stretch with a new sense of awe in how far I've come and what an awesome event this truly is. Yes there is a beginning and an end but there's also a lot of mileage in between.
So here I am running again and loving it more than I think I ever have! My adorable niece Lily gave me a Garmin forerunner 405 for Christmas (do not know how I've lived without one until now) and I'm planning my runs and races for the next year.
My blood pressure has come down to 145/85 and although it's not perfect it's on it's way....
and so am I..
to my next race!
L
and so am I..
to my next race!
L
